In Awe: A Letter Embracing God’s Majestic Presence and Faithfulness

Lord,

All I have to offer is praise and adoration. I come to you with desires and burdens, and all I can do is lay them down before you. I praise you as I sit here before dawn with a full moon lighting the sky. I praise you, not only for the heartbeat in my chest as I consider the man who just flew past this window, right past that blazing moon, headed to a meeting, to return home tonight, and who holds this home together with wisdom, commitment, and strength. 

Or for the son who walked out the door shortly after his dad to travel the length of Wyoming in a yellow school bus to play the mental sport of tennis and how I love watching him play, but more so, the mental strength and character he is building through each competition. 

And I consider his older brother who will watch him play today, representing our family from where he now lives, attends school, leads quietly and intentionally, and touches everyone he meets with kindness. 

And this girl below me on the other side of this window who slept outside again because she says it refreshes her soul; whose love for people and Jesus is the light of this family and every person she encounters. 

And her younger sister who is quiet yet courageous, smart, and beautiful. One who has a sound mind despite anxious feelings.

It is not only these circumstances and people you have graciously given that cause my heart to burst. It is You. 

Your majesty. Your work. Your presence. Your redemption. You, who knit together these children and this family so beautifully and how Your work continues in them and us. You amaze me. 

You hold all things together by Your fierce and tender love. You are glorious. You are kind and compassionate.You are worthy of all praise. I am in awe of Your beauty as I look around and within. 

You create masterpieces with Your generous strokes of kindness, gentleness, and transformative love. 

I feel this gratitude, not because my life has been easy. Or because each day is easy. But because I’ve seen Your faithfulness. I’ve seen Your redemption, and I’ve seen how You create beauty from ashes. 

I’ve witnessed life without You and I’ve tasted it with You. I’ve tasted abundance and joy amid sorrow and pain. I have digested Your Word that is alive and active, and continues to bring breath to my soul. I am Yours.

I trust You with my life. I trust You with these children and this marriage. I trust You with what you are building and what You require of me. I trust You with each generation in an ever confused and disheartened world. I trust You to hold it all together.

I offer my children, my marriage, and my dreams to You. I lay them all down. You are the author and I praise You because You are good.

You are good. You are good. You are good.